To all extents and purposes, I should HATE life right now.
My relationship with my long term partner has ended. I consequently have to move house, and the flat I was supposed to move into has fallen through. Plus, I no longer have my 9-5 job, meaning money will be a little bit tighter than normal for a while.
Strangely though, I can’t stop smiling.
I’m not happy that me and him broke up. Far from it. I am happy though, that the rows have stopped, and we can be in each others company again for more than 10 minutes without throwing something. We’ve even been to the pub together with the dog, and both came out alive. That, my friends, is progress.
I’m not happy that I have to move out of this lovely house, that was meant to be a home for our little family. However, it holds bad memories and in all truth, I wouldn’t want to stay now the relationship has broken down. I’m not happy that I spent 48 hours of my life stressing over the loss of that gorgeous flat in NW10 with the roof terrace and comfy sofa…but thanks to the love and kindness of great new friends, I will soon be a resident of Chelsea, and the puppy will have the chance to make some posh friends, not like the rough dogs you get here in Tooting…
And as for the job? Well. Despite it all coming as a major shock, seeing as I was performing well and hitting every target set, I’m COMPLETELY happy to be out of there! I have never been one for having to go through 28 processes when 2 would do, or for kissing arse to people who quite simply don’t deserve it. So I see the whole thing as an opportunity to get off my bottom and do what I should have been doing for ages…follow my dreams, indulge my passions and become the person I was designed to be.
So yes, while it may have been a pretty rotten week, its also been rather brilliant.
I am so excited to find out what the future holds, and I feel back in control of my destiny.
We all go through tough times, and sometimes it seems as though there just isn’t any point in playing the game anymore. But I promise, round that next corner, you’ll start seeing rainbows and learn to ignore the rain.
Hold on to good friends, take opportunities to make new ones, and be grateful for every chance you get. You hold happiness in the palm of your hand…Don’t wait for the world to come to you. Go out and grab it.
TLLWTL readers can take over the world, I promise.